The Green Wave

July 25, 2010

Mothers & Thunder

Filed under: Celebration, Music, People, Storytelling — kate @ 12:21 pm

I got to play a concert up in Portland this week as part of Lynne Cullen’s Seanchai Nights series at Bull Feeney’s Pub.  I love that room with its round stage, tall windows, and Irish quotes painted high on the buttery yellow walls.  It seems like the people who come are always ready to sing and to laugh and to dive down into the stories with me.  I love them, and this time was no exception!  I met a great young family with three kids who looked like wizards (the youngest of them is building a harp and learning Gaelic), a bevy of storytellers, an old friend I hadn’t seen in at least 20 years, and a crowd of spirited party girls, among others.  One of my first employers (for baby-sitting, window-washing, and cocktail-party-tray-passing) was also present, and remembered that I used to sit on the hill behind her house and read poetry.

But this visit was made even more special by the appearance of a special guest and her entourage:  my mother and her friends.  They filled an entire long table, and they sang and smiled throughout, and warmed me to the core.  And to see my mother there among them, laughing at my antics and learning to sing those Irish words – well, that is a treasure to me.  This is a rare occurrence.  In fact, it has only happened once before when I hosted a party to celebrate the release of The Harp-Boat.  And yes, even at my age, it matters to me very much that my mother likes what I do, that she sees the value of what I offer.  And that night, she did.

Sometimes, everything goes right.

That blessed night, there was a strapping lad at the bar who gallantly carried the piano up those winding stairs.

The traffic cop softened and tore up the ticket he was writing for me.

The room filled up and every chair hosted someone lovable.

And just at the right moment in one story, just when I said, “She sat up in bed and said, ‘Lord, God, what is that noise?’” the thunder boomed over the sea behind me.  Thunder & lightning as collaborators = amazing!

And my mother came.  Did I mention my mother came?

A wonderful night.  Lucky, grateful, amazed, delighted, inspired me.

March 7, 2010

Blessings of the Green Days

Filed under: Celebration, Irish, Music, Spirit — kate @ 12:47 pm

If we’re friends or if you look at my performance schedule (which probably means we ARE friends), you know that I’m about to enter my busiest time of the year.  I am a lucky duck to have all these chances to do what I love best and also to share music with so many musicians I love and admire.  I am blessed to be able to really celebrate this season of Irishness and to help other people feel included in it, blessed by it, uplifted by it.  Lucky, lucky girl!

You might be surprised to learn, though, that I tend to get nervous at the start of all this bounty.  I can engage in very crazy thinking on the cusp of such opportunity.  If I’m not careful I can talk myself into feeling that I’m not up to the task, that I don’t have enough fresh repertoire, that I’ll get sick with all the driving and racing around, that there isn’t enough time to do things well, that I’ll disappoint listeners or myself… I could go on longer, but I’d rather not.  These fears and nagging whispers are not what’s important.

What’s important is what I hope:

  • I hope that the music, stories, and poetry I share help people feel that the beauty of the world belongs to them.
  • I hope that my performances bring pleasure, respite, engagement, fun, and warmth to my audiences.
  • I hope for moments of wit and levity, for moments of sweetness and warmth, for moments of imagination and the opening-up of possibility.
  • I hope to feel, at the end of this little “tour,” that I have really celebrated the vitality of what I love:  connection, inspiration, courage, humor, imagination, warmth, and a certain jauntiness that looks right into the face of fear or heartache and says,

“Be that as it may:  here’s a little tune I invented for the occasion!”

December 24, 2009

Scrooge & Me

Filed under: Celebration, Spirit, Writing — kate @ 5:44 pm

I’ve spent a batch of happy hours this week reading Charles Dickens’ wonderful book, A Christmas Carol. Like many people, I’ve seen the play a few times, and the story itself is ubiquitous almost to the point of losing its punch. We all know about Scrooge and the three ghosts, and how the miser is transformed into a warm and joyful human being by book’s end.

But I’d never read the book, and that, as Frost says, has made all the difference. For one thing, after a forced encounter with Dickens in high school, I’ve hardly paid him any notice, and now I see that the loss is entirely my own! What a writer he is!

He has a marvelous sense of humor and sometimes seems to nearly wink from the page as here when he describes dead Marley’s face: “it had a dismal light about it, like a bad lobster in a dark cellar.” A bad lobster! Those words elicited from me a snort of pleasure!

Dickens’ imagination roams among many characters and places; he introduces us to thieves and miners, sailors and lighthousekeepers, country people and London merchants. He takes us far out to sea and underground, into the city slums and business quarter, into sitting rooms and counting houses. And most wonderfully, he tours the past, the present, and the future and carries us along for the ride.

And he’s not afraid of sentiment – OK, I can hear some of you thinking: I’ll say!. But overall, he strikes me as much like a great cook who aims for a perfect balance of flavors, and so some sentimentality is perfectly acceptable alongside the more piquant tastes he offers. It’s that bouqet garni that allows us all to come along with Scrooge on the journey he makes: without the blend of humor, sentiment, hope, and the acknowledgment of poverty and hardship, we would only observe Scrooge changing, rather than going along with him and changing ourselves.

That is what really struck me in reading A Christmas Carol. I am Scrooge. No, I am not as mean or miserly or cruel. But I have missed opportunities to show kindness, to be generous, to forebear offering an opinion and instead to uplift and encourage. When Scrooge sees the young Tiny Tim ailing in his chair by the fire and when the spirit tells him that this will likely be the little boy’s last Christmas, I felt such a pang of understanding. I, too, have seen suffering and turned away.

Sometimes it all seems too much to address in any meaningful way. Yes, we have limited resources of time and money, and the world cries out for help and healing. All the time. All the time.

But Dickens doesn’t bang us over the head with piety or tell us that we’ve got to give up everything we own in order to be spared from the fate the Ghost of Christmas Yet to Come shows Scrooge will be his own if he continues as an old skinflint. Just being a champion laugher – like Scrooge’s nephew of whom Dickens writes, “If you should happen, by any unlikely chance, to know a man more blest in a laugh than Scrooge’s nephew, all I can say is, I should like to know him too. Introduce him to me, and I’ll cultivate his acquaintance.” – seems to elevate a person. If you are prepared to smile and celebrate, you are lifted up, too. And if you are blessed with extra wealth and if you should spare some of it to help the poor, you will not die alone and unloved for you have “sent your spirit abroad” as Marley tells Scrooge we are meant to do in this life.

After his encounter with the three ghosts and the visions they show him, Scrooge learns how to send his spirit abroad into the world in a useful way. He gives a large sum to charity. He gives a raise to his clerk, Bob Cratchit. He sends a turkey to the Cratchit family and takes an interest in Tiny Tim that ultimately prolongs the boy’s life. But he doesn’t save the whole city. He can’t fix all the problems in London.

But he can do his best. He does what he can, and he does it with a joyful heart. He knows there is no time to lose and he throws himself into the business of being joyful and generous with his whole heart.

Having read this magical book, I am inclined to do the same.

Merry Christmas, friends! God bless us every one!

January 6, 2008

The New Gig

Filed under: Celebration, Music, Spirit — kate @ 2:45 pm

Happy New Year, friends! Back in the old days when I used to go to confession, I left the confessional with that delicious sense of a clean slate, a fresh start, a weight lifted. Here at the start of 2008 I feel something akin to that, though I plan to remain fresh and hopeful for longer than I used to stay in a state of grace – about eight minutes on average, I’d say.

I’m not making any resolutions this year. Everywhere I turn it seems we’re collectively giving up on resolutions and their “this year will be different” promises that vanish like snow in January rain. Instead I’m making a couple promises to myself.

1. To let music and creating come first. I so often save my session at the piano or the harp for the late afternoon or evening or even night on the principle that I should do the “real” work first. This means that some days I don’t do the very thing that brings me the most joy. This year I’m inverting the order. I’m going to let myself be a little late, a little imperfect, a little looser with my other work so that every day is another chance to play some music, write a poem, or return to the fantastic world I’m making in my novel.

2. To seize more opportunities for pleasure, enjoyment, and fun. I think often of people who in the old days found hilarity in the simplest things, of children who can make a game out of a stick and a line drawn in the dirt, and of animals who need only a piece of fluff to feel fully entertained. Just as I looked for merriment around the holiday and found it everywhere, in this new year I know I’ll see fun, pleasure, enjoyment, and spirit just by keeping an eye out for it.

3. To let go of stuff I don’t need. This is working beautifully already. At different moments, I’ve let go of: impatience, self-criticism, a heavy bag, fear about sciatica, the compulsion to answer a letter instantly, forwarded messages I don’t feel like reading. All gone! And just think how many more things I can shrug off, and how light I’ll feel!

So that’s the New Gig for me: more music, more fun and pleasure, and more freedom. How about you?

Wishing you all exactly the kind of New Year you most wish for yourselves -
Kate

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